Quick recap lang ako how my life turned around right after all the impossible things that happened to me. After Osbourne, been employed for over a year already to MHC. Met nice people at work, developed tight friendship with them. First time to spearhead a system implementation ( not that easy i think). Too many bumps and rollercoaster rides i may say. This cost me a lot of patience, understanding and positive view on a lot of things. this tested my inner strenghts, and my best-est attitude. Which i think is the result of my employment in Osbourne. Yeah, i thank my mentor GB, for the training i have been through under your leadership. I truly appreciated everything ( not a very good challenge though for those people with a weak heart and conviction).
At the start of the year 2011, i had my mind focused on things i shoud've done a long time ago. Time for myself. Yeah, been single for ages and still lovin' it. Do things on my own, buy things without explaining to someone why, go out with friends considerately, and yes, i enjoyed every bit of it. Late bloomer ako i know. All my life, i had put people first in my life ignoring the fact that i have a life too. I maybe too late on other things, but i have the perseverance to catch things up. I'm a student of life and still learning.
What i lost in experience, i am gaining it again. for one, confidence in my self. I admit, i was so blinded by the fact that i needed someone to make me feel OK, but its not. The fact is, i only need to do things other people can't do to make me feel good. Second, i un-like my self many times. I felt i should be like her, or them, or whatever pleases him. i am wrong. People will still love you, for who you are and not who are you assuming to be(XS to ZS). Third, nagtatanim ng sama ng loob. This started when my bday was forgotten by my parents. Nurtured it until it lost me already. I could not forgive and forget because of this. I could not move on mostly on some issues on the past because i assumed that keeping it in silence will make them realized things. I AM SO WRONG. Lastly,faith. I admit i had allowed my self deluge to the fact that everything is ok even without the 'BIG GUY'. That was the most shameful thing i did. It was when i am feeling the pain that He was there comforting me. Guiding me all through to date and still pouring blessing.
And right now, as i step on this new Journey ahead, i dont know what will happen and am not sure on people i will meet. But i have to trust the 'Big Guy' up there on giving me this path wherever this leads to. I should not be scared nor complain, nor even have this slightest doubt that i am not up for this. He had prepared me for this, and I thank Him with all my heart.
Just waiting for the arrival of my 'pass', and i will be saying 'ta-ta' in bit.
Life is full of surprises ahead, enjoy it and be thankful.
I love God, and He always makes a way.
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